excitement

my life is soon to reach its 20th mark, it is a great milestone and it divides me from the teens. I do ponder how my life would be different if i had made a different choice at many junctions but i can say that i am quite glad to what i have become - a monster. HAHA

somethings are given since birth, just like the lady gaga's song "born this way" i think i am born in such a way that i do not express affection openly and keeps most of my thoughts to myself. but i am very happy to meet certain people in life and become friends with them. i feel very comfortable with them, but still many things i do not share with all of them. i am not the type to go up to my parent and say i love them, i do not get them presents on their birthdays or give them mother/father day cards. but i do appreciate them. But i cannot chose my parent so in a sense they have been allocated to me. how do i wish sometimes that love can be allocated, so i can save myself from that process i really hate.

i wonder how my life will change from now.