无缘

well once again my trip to beijing is canceled.ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. i have to admit that somethings are fated to be like how i am not fated to fulfill my high school dream. haha. i asked my friend if it was too late and she said YES straight at my face. HAHA. well maybe so. all i want was a full high school experience.

She said i lack a love life. Hmm, makes me really think. always thought freinds are just enough but at times friends are really insufficient. But too bad, never really have been a ladies guy.. nothing i can do about that. cannot possibly just 霸王硬上弓. HAHA.

Finished Dorain Gray. that book sent me into thinking, we can run and hide from justice but what cant hide from is ourselves. Our thoughts and conscious. However i think i agree with Lord Henry, Crimes are vulgar, but pleasures are human natures. Morals are just exhibits to the hypocrisy of life. Manners are just a form of self-consolation.