what a day man!!!

Ok today is fraud with things than added to my bad headache. 1st my teacher ask me to drop CLL, which is good but maybe not that good. i can have more time, but the idea of back up no longer exist. i was never meant to take CLL in the 1st place but this seem really like a beautiful mistake. And my classmate is right, i should have a subject to fall on. 2nd is my CCa, i am being torn apart by the 2 CCas which is frustrating reposible to 1 is being irresposible to the other. Headache. 3rd is some psc scholarship, the terms sound good, going to china + masters in US/UK. but i am not very inspired to be a civil servant except in the military intel or diplomat. But i dont know, if i drop my CLL than i most probably cant get it, than again i dont want to stress myself out. being a scholar is tough. Than again, my parent could not really afford to send me for a masters in Us/UK which is very expensive. So this is really a good chance for me. So many decisions in 1 day really makes my head whirl. So now i am just following FATE.