awake my memories

my memories have been awaken. have you ever experienced a scenario in which someone else ask you to join a group or do something that he/she likes. So you do it because of him/her but you end up being more involved in that thing than him/her. well that happened to me.

if you ask me do i regret it, i would say no. but i will be a regret in life. especially if you do that thing to get close to that someone you like in the first place. now that he/she has left, you linger in that circle for your own personal reasons. i think it is complex, and i hate to get involved in such complicated things.

i travel extensively , but i somehow feel lonely whenever i go someplace. always felt like going to that place, but when i reach there i would feel: this is it, that's all? i dont know why i feel like that but ya..... 原来逍遥也是一种寂寞，一种快乐的悲伤。

but look at the bright side, it is better than being sad. now i am so into rock and roll. make me feel so unleashed, rock bands are so cool esp beattles , queen. talking about the beattles, they rose during the hippies movement, which i really feel that hippies resembles Taoism. both advocate freedom 逍遥 and idling all day long 无为. haha idea of both is peace, happiness and love .