long time no see, i am so sorry

apology to those who reflected to me about the slow posting. i have been quite hectic these days and i have no spare time to blog. SO SAD!!!! SYF for CCC, Think challenge for SCICO (these are my cca) anyway mugging is totally impossible for me. i tried to mugg econs yesterday only to come to a halt after 4 chapters... that is like so far away from my final chapters. today i want to give myself a break so no studying until at night. i am just to relax on myself. i still aspire to get an A for econs and get that medal thingy for phy and math(top 10 A level) but i am not putting in any hard work.... i am what i call IMPOSSIBLE. haha back to my miracle theory again- what is yours is yours nothing can snatch it away- including slacking. haha me and my twisted theories ( that is what my classmates call me now) but apparently according to some dunno-wad pyramid i have proudly attained nirvana. LOL i dont really think so, if not i would be like a deity roaming round the world, enjoying a simple life. i dont really aspire to travel round the world as many people do, instead i hope to stay in a place with a beautiful environment with the beautiful "she" for the rest of my life. To me that equates to happiness.

talking about love, i firmly believe that i am a strong believer in true love. look at those ridiculous news you get a guy becoming a dad at age of 13, 11 year old girl have sex with a 17 , father raping own daughter, 17 guy molesting girls in lifts, this world is simply getting outrages.......

i still stick to my own belief that these are all fated. decay in society is fated, so although those stupid academic scholars on social-political can talk talk talk they can never do anything about it. same goes to scientist on global warming. there are just too many factors involve. fate is the thread that connects these factors.

i read this article saying mathematicians are more likely to believe in god and physicist biologist are less likely to believe in gods. how true as the later 2 aspire to become gods themselves. i am a person who believes in fate and science is the tool to accomplish fate. we know how the sichuan earthquake or indian ocean happened but we dont know why. why did the earthquake happen at that particular time at that particular moment at that particular place. that is fate. and even probability is an exhibition of fate. the chances of striking lotteryis 1 out of 2 million so who out of that 2 million person who bought is going to win? you can explain that striking lottery is possible but not predict who. we think we can control our destiny using science but it is fate that uses science first to control us. there is little reason why we cant do some things- cant go beyond speed of light, see how universe is created- fate did not allow us to do these yet. it is no coincidence that the apple drop on newtons head. it is fate. it is fated that a certain knowledge is bestowed upon us but not that we discover, scientist discoverers inventors were able to do what they can do because they were fated to do so. fate shaped their lives, give them character and situations to accomplish what they have accomplished.