new life?

moving away from my old house and throwing away all my old stuff hasnt really changed my life at all, although some did make some hints that my life was slightly different. All that really matters in the end is myself. how i hope that time would fly for the next 5 months. After that i would be done with my national service. a bittersweet experience in which i cannot imagine my life without it. just like the times in TJ. i think i would be less mindful about my life if i had not gone through those 2 ordeals. but it is through this pain that i have awakened truly. and with this awkening comes pain. Just like how buhdda's trip outside his palace, where he saw the sufferings of life, prompted him to search for the truth. my own road to enlightenment is filled with pain and suffering but with the goal of a greater good.