tears of the north wind

i teared today, but i dont know why. i feel that there is this overwhelming thing inside my soul that is tearing me apart.

however, i suddenly recalled the days when my cousins married, i suddenly miss those occasions, those fun. opening of the car, males side begging the female side to open the gate. the tea ceremony, the banquet. the gowns, the songs, the speech that never seem to go wrong.