fate

i posted a post before called FIRE!!!!!!! in 2008, and remember that discipline teacher, guess what, she turned out to be my Gp tutor. Wow, what a small world. well i really enjoyed her lessons, i thought that they were fun and educational. took away many valuable skills and ideas from her lesson.

looking back at my Jc life it was sort of a bitter-sweet experience, more bitter than sweet, but overall i think it was once in a lifetime. unique i would say, different from many other Jc students. but that is life isnt it. today i saw a batch of jc students coming out of the train station in their PE uniform it sort of sparked a thought in me- WAHH those days!!

well it wasnt a very strong emotion, but at least i had an emotion. as i have concluded my jc life, i feel like i graduated. like anything, the end is always gratifying. it also gave me a thought, i am no longer a student, i am a grown up, responsible adult.

isnt this what i always had wanted, yes! i always wanted to grow up, hated years as a child i feel that i am being held back by an invisible hand. but now that i am an adult i feel this hand changed the direction of the force from pulling to pushing. now i feel a pressure, the pressure for an adult to achieve is there. unlike a child which seem to have infinite chances and cushion to fall back on. an adult's predicament is less luxurious and fairy-tale like.

after concluding my student life many people and events came into my mind. i wonder, really, what would have happened if i had taken another route. i dont bitch about my life now and say : if i had.... or if i had not..... ! NO!! i dont bitch in that manner. but i am curious, what factors could have occurred. Remember life is not something that can be compared ceteris paribus as factors spawn as and when it deem fits.

Life, vexing brilliant and simple minds alike for millenniums.