shanghai noon

now i am currently in shanghai and i will be flying off to states tomorrow. everything is fine since i came here. but i really have this feeling that i prefer traveling on my own. i can do what i really want. the house here is nice, it has a beautiful surrounding. but it is god damme deserted. middle of no where i must say. didnt start shopping yet, as i expect to do it on the returning journey. somehow, my heart is at peace. i should be feeling excited now that i am traveling and stuff but i am not. i am feeling this peace i never felt before, something right from the bottom of my heart. the camp at mshs let me think about loads of stuff. and now the cool air here is making me calm. i started to think what i really want and who i am.

conclusion: i am bored. haha, i have been looking for things to play with ever since. i feel younger and more mature at the same time. this is beacuse i realised that a child-like life is a life of no worries and that is the life i want. so play like a child and dun be that spoilt. that is what i mean. and i feel stronger than before that i am waiting for something to awaken me.

sorry to my frens in sg for leaving so long. i am trying to change my ticket back now. hope to see all of ya early.