Worst week perhaps...

Ok this week is full of headaches and nothing of fun. i watches3 movies in 3 days. first was the crappy max payne than nights of rodethe and lastly butterfly lovers. 2 out of 3 are crappy. damme why am i so bloody unlucky. nvm these. i feel suddenly like some people are feeling resentful to me. what have i done these 2 weeks or is it the whole environment is dead due to PW and exam results. especially some people, i feel that they are deliberatly avoiding me. than some frens got some problems i think. they like all sound weird and i dunno what has happened to them. Damme sian, i wanted to go watch a sparring match but nobody wants to come. than frens ask me for benefits..... what kind of frens they are man. i nvr ask for benefits from frens la, than people ask from me.... sometimes i wonder is that how u weigh your friends. maybe someday i feel suicidal than i call them, the next thing they tell me is" i am playing dota, i hanging " .... what i see now is that this may happen. i dunno but it really makes me feel that they do not respect and appreciate friendship, if they dont want to go just say " i dun feel like" than i would just say nvm. but they like tell me about money and stuff. this really pissed me off, god damme it. i know money is more important but i really hate it when u judge friendship with it. sometimes i really feel that some frens are being selfish at many times, i dunno la but frens like love is so unpredictable and eventful. really is a headache. i hate losing frens. i can accept people's short-coming but not when i feel that it seems to cross the line. ( i know you will read this, call me when u are free. i think we need to talk)

than i know some other are people avoiding me, i dunno why. but ya it is damme obvious, ok i admit i am angry now so i may use some harsh words. but i really cant figure human out. i am not a phycologist. if you are not happy with me, send me a email telling me. i will apologise if neccessary. ignore me and it will only make things worst, communication really is important. haizzzzzzz i am actually very sensative to people's change in emotions and stuff. it is just that at many times i act blur or i dun care.


i am really going crazy now. it is over 12 now and i see myself still doing OP and WR. But i know i am not alone. see a bunch of ppl online.......